This is not a negative post. It’s a positive one.
When reflecting on the past, it should always be positive because regardless of negative or positive memories, you’re still here.
This time last year, I was not really happy. I was really trying to find my feet at University as a “Mature student”. I was surrounded by toxic and fake friends. I was drinking excessively and spending too much money. It was the start of my spiral out of control.
Despite it being a crappy time, there were positive parts. I did have few friends who were decent and good people. I was in a new relationship which made me happy. I was enjoying the course content. I always had family and friends at home that loved me and cared for me. And it was nearly christmas.
NOTE: In negative times, there are always positive parts. Whether you can see them or not, a negative can always be turned into a positive.
From my negativity, I learned that… not everyone is at university for the same reason as you. Not everyone is going to be a good and decent friend. University is a hard enough struggle without any added problems. Your drinking habits are not healthy and they are encouraging you to make bad choices.
I learned that it was time to accept these lessons and do something about it.
So, I did something about it. I moved out of the house that was causing toxicity in my life. I removed all the fake friends and negative influences from my life. I stopped drinking all together and started looking after myself. I accepted that everyone is different and has different morals and values in life. I focused more on the people that had always loved me. I focused on my studies and reminded myself why I made the decision to go to university.
From this, I am here. In a house that I enjoy living in. I live with really good people. I have made new friends. I still have my great friends from a year ago. I am still at university working hard. I am president of a society. I have a job which I really enjoy. I am still sober and finding it really easy.
Life is good and I am happy.
It has taken time, patience and perseverance to get here and I’ve struggled with my mental health along the way. I’ve questioned myself many times as to why I’m doing what I’m doing. I’ve cried and suffered heart break.
Here I am. A year ahead of where I was. The good and positive influences have remained in my life and the negative have gone. I am much happier and much more in control of my life.
Moral of the story: It is important and healthy to reflect. You may be exactly where you want to be or you may be only a few steps forwards but everything happens for a reason. Keep persevering. Keep being patient. It all takes times. You got this.