Depression and anxiety can be soul destroying and mind boggling.
When life is going great, depression and anxiety pop back up to remind me that they’re still there.
My life is good. I have achieved so much, I have good friends and loving boyfriend. I have a big family network. I am working towards going to Uni next September. Life is going the way I want it too.
But I’m not happy? Why? I don’t know.
I should thank my blessings that after problems that have occurred in my life, I have over come them and I am on to bigger and better things.
But I’m still down. I’m still worrying over ridiculous things. I’m feeling insecure and down all of a sudden.
And this is what people don’t understand. Heck, I don’t understand it either but why do people need to understand? When I say to people that I am feeling low or sad or whatever, why do I need to justify my feelings?
I don’t have a solid explanation for why I feel like this. There has been little things that have stressed me out a little lately but I can’t seem to shake this feeling of despair and doom.
I find myself staring at the TV or my laptop and not paying attention. I’m constantly scrolling through social media like I’m looking for something but I don’t know what I’m actually looking for. I become withdrawn.
Sometimes, I like to think I will come off my anti-depressants soon and then this happens which is even more frustrating.
I know that there are others out there who feel exactly how I do but how do you contact them. How do you communicate about these things? I am all about talking therapy but when I talk to my friends or family, I get worried that they will soon get fed up of me. I don’t want to be labeled an attention seeker because I’m not and the just begins a vicious circle because then I feel more alone and depressed and my anxiety grows.
As well as this, how can I tell people how I’m feeling when there really isn’t a reason for it.
Tell me about it.
So, I’m hoping that tonight, I will fall asleep and wake up and I will be happy.